running has a way of calming my nerves and cheering me up most of the time. there are some times though that running doesn't work for that, only family does.
this is one of those times. but more about that in the new year. more about my family now.
when i'm trying to make a decision there is nothing i like to hear less than "you have to do what's right for you." because if i knew what was right, i would have decided already.
i've never been good at making decisions. my family will listen to me go back and forth, fret over every little detail, each cause and effect. they will let me cry and tell me everything is ok. and it usually is. my mom in particular will talk at length about how special i am and remind me of all i've accomplished. and i'm not saying i'm more special than the next person, but it's still nice to hear. and in the end, i know that whatever i choose my family is there 100%.
this Christmas will be the first not at 18 canterbury. that will be weird. no Christmas village taking over the house, no fabulous light display on our back porch only for us to see. no Christmas eve party with the cousins. but i am looking forward to setting some new traditions with my sister and her family (my precious nephew aidan). and most of all, i am looking forward to spending it with family, no matter where we are.
my family is made up of those chosen for me (and how lucky i am) and those i chose. and i am so grateful for each and every person.
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